Happy 2nd Birthday Elle Belle!

Dear Peanut,
Two years ago was hands down one of the best days of my life. At 12:42pm, you literally came into this world screaming! You weren't even all the out when you started hollering! That was you though. You were a very happy little girl, but when something didn't go your way, you let us know. And as soon as you got your way, you were happy again! A little stinker from the second you were born! But you did give me a super easy delivery- so for that, you definitely win bonus points!!
Right away, you were so sweet and cuddly. You just wanted to be held and even though you were a bigger baby at 8lb. 7oz, you seemed so tiny... except for your thighs! Sorry Baby Girl, but it's true! You had a little bird nose and started sticking out your lip and trying to make us feel bad- just like your big brother! Oh and the little noises you made! I can still hear them! We were so excited to show you off to everyone, but I remember being so relieved when everyone left so that we could have your all to ourselves... What I wouldn't give to have that back again...

We had a little party for you today. But its hard to have a birthday party with no birthday girl. We got you a pink and purple cake. Some of us spent a couple making fleece blankets for the hospital- we got 16 done today!- and then had cake and ice cream. Afterward, we went to your spot and sent you some balloons. I know we didn't stay long, but it was so cold in that wind!
I miss you so much, and I'm so mad so that you aren't here to celebrate with us... I'm angry that we missed out on a whole other year with you. I can't even picture you as a two year old. My mind just can't fathom it. This evening I was looking at your picture and I can't even believe that you were really here and ours. It's almost like you were too good to be true... Sometimes I definitely wonder if you were just the best dream I ever had...

Max writing in Sissy's birthday card.

Ellie's pink and purple cake- some of the frosting looks a little red, but it's magenta!

Ellie's cousin, Evan, and Max. Obviously Max is pretty set on the cake!

An awful picture of us...

I know you had a better party today in Heaven. A better party than I could ever dream of throwing you. I'm sure you giggled, played and laughed. I know you made a mess of the best cake anyone could ever imagine. And I know it's selfish, but I wanted you to do all of those things here, with us. Just like you should be...
Love you so much little girl- I always will... And I am so thankful that two years ago, you came into our lives- even if it was for not nearly long enough...