Monday, November 21, 2011

So.....

Well it's not something that I'm really ready to share yet...




BUT, it's getting kind of hard to hide this...


And the reason for my quickly growing stomach IS-



That's right! TWINS!

This stupid picture will NOT rotate correctly when uploaded... 10wk 3D Ultrasound

These two will {hopefully} be joining our family in May. Their due date is May 31st, but they will likely make an appearance early to mid May. I will be 13 weeks on Thanksgiving and know that I should be relaxing a little bit now. But it's much easier said than done. I'm very worried. The anxiety is almost crippling and before each OB appt I'm sick to my stomach with nerves...
I went to my doctor today and she was able to hear both heartbeats with the doppler. I have strict instructions to gain more weight- even though I have been shoving food in already!- I want some big fat, chubby babies that don't have to spend anytime in a NICU.
The last 13 weeks have been very long... Between weeks 5- 11, I felt horrible. So tired, dizzy, nauseous and crabby. Having two in there has definitely made a difference. With Ellie and Max, I didn't feel great. But this time is a whole new ball game! It's been a struggle. Thankfully, the last week I have felt better so I hope it stays this way!
Our twins are di-di twins- meaning they have their own sac and placentas. For twins, it's the best case scenario- it's like having two separate pregnancies going on at the same time. But I am still considered high risk. After I reach 24 weeks, I will be monitored on a more intense schedule. At 24 weeks I will start every two week appts, and at 30 weeks, I start weekly ultrasounds... Thankfully, I have the best OB who understands exactly what we've been through with infertility treatments, Max's autism and Ellie's passing. She is not willing to feed into my anxieties but is willing to whatever we need to make me feel good about things. It's a very good mix and I am so glad I found her 5 years ago!
Until I was actually pregnant, I never thought that losing Ellie would affect how I feel about any future pregnancies as much as it has. With both kids I was hesistant at first, but excited beyond belief. This time, is much different. I want to be excited, but I am just not convinced that everything is going to be ok. I am following all the pregnancy rules and doing what I should, especially in the way of growing TWO babies, but there is a total disconnect. I have felt them move a couple of times, but nothing consistent. I hope once they start moving more, it will seem more real... So yes, I know things will likely be fine. But Ellie was perfectly healthy (so we thought) until the day she died, so it's a little harder to convince me this time around...
I am hoping that by sharing the news- which we had to do because there's really no hiding my gigantic stomach anymore- it gets me a little more excited. So like any person that hasn't had their heart ripped out would do... here's some other pictures!

Baby A- aka Pebbles

Baby B- aka Bam-Bam. (seriously Blogger!) 
 So I had an ultrasound at 10 weeks (I convinced my doctor it was necessary since I lost Ellie's twin between 8-9 weeks- I needed the peace of mind!). My mom came with me since Dave was at work and we laughed as we watched Baby B kick Baby A over and over again... They are already fighting!

12 weeks and One Day... yeah I'm going to be GIGANTIC!!

48 comments:

Just the Tip said...

OH MY GOSH!!

Congrats! I would never have guessed it!!

I'm so glad you have a doctor whose understanding, and I think everything you are feeling is completely normal.

Ellie is going to be a big sister!!

Congrats again!!

TanaLee Davis said...

Congrats! I can't believe how successful all my BLMS have been in getting prego. Its awesome to hear the great news and Im sure max is super excited to be a big brother again and Ellie will be a big sister! WOW....im so shocked!hugs-
~Felicia

Sarita Boyette said...

You know, Tiffany, I was reading some of your archives last night & I had a strong feeling that a baby was in your near future. But to find out it is TWO! Congratulations! I do pray for a wonderful pregnancy for you. I have twins & I well remember being so sick & tired for many months, But it is completely worth it! I'm so very happy for you and your family. xoxo

ferfischer said...

OMG! As a twin momma myself I'm thrilled for you! Mine were mo/di so a little different, but so great! I went past 38 weeks! It's awesome. I couldn't be happier for you! I hope you have a very smooth pregnancy - even if you're huge - its so worth it! Congrats!

Abby said...

So excited for you. Congratulations!

Angie said...

So happy!!! Congratulations!!! I know how scary pregnancy after loss is and can only imagine how much more nerve wracking it is with twins. I'll continue thinking of you and praying for Pebbles and Bam Bam. xo

Our Journey said...

So glad that I can publicly tell you, congratulations! :)

crystal said...

I am so happy for you!!! I am praying for you and those precious babies. I know that Ellie is a proud Big Sister. God and Ellie have sent you two precious babies!!!

Beth said...

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY! so exciting!
XOXO
B

Angie said...

Congratulations!

Caroline said...

So very happy for you. Keeping you & those babies close to my heart.
Congrats !!!!!!!!!

Ginger said...

Congratulations! So, so happy for you. They are already adorable!

NewYearMum2.blogspot.com said...

Wonderful wonderful news... congratulations with all my heart :)) I'm so so happy for you and your family... you've been through so much and your anxiety is understandable so am so glad you have an OB who completely understands :) Love the photos of your little ones and looking forward to all your news along the way :)) Love to you and your bubs xoxo

Preston and Jordan's Mommy said...

Congrats!! You look great.

Kelly L Boots said...

Congratulations!!

Laura said...

WOW! Congratulations on your pregnancy! You are going to have two beautiful babies!!! I'm so excited for you. I'm a long time reader and I was so excited when I read this post! <3

Lisa said...

Like I've said before, I don't know you personally, but I am sitting here with hot, happy tears running down my face. Many prayers for a healthy, happy pregnancy! They are beautiful lil' people already! ((Hus))

Lisa said...

I meant ((HUGS))!!!! :)

Kelly said...

Love this! Big fat huge public CONGRATS! I've told you before but all your weird emotions with this pregnancy are normal as a BLM. Or at least I feel them, too. :) Love you and love those babies!

Ashley said...

Oh.My.God!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so freaking happy for you!!!!!!! You are on the same track I was on with my girls!!!! I was 14 weeks at Thanksgiving though - when I actually found out there were 2 babies instead of 1!!! You can imagine that shock!!!

I have the biggest smile on my face and although I don't know you outside of the blogging world, my heart is truly swelling with happiness for you, Dave, Max and Ellie!!!!

And that first picture of you showing off the bump - you look so very happy!!! Oh my gosh - I seriously can't stop smiling!!!! Congrats!! Congrats!! Congrats!!

Harlowe said...

Aw, I'm so happy for you all, Tiffany!

Kayla said...

I have no words....except CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LauraJane said...

:) You know I'm so happy for you :)

Dasha said...

Tiffany,I read your blog every day,I never actually post anything,I just never thought I have a right thing to say,I know I am a coward.But today I actually cried with the tears of joy.You and your family deserve to be happy like nobody else! Good luck!

Tiffany said...

:) you know how i feel already. so glad that little babes are growing and kicking the crap out of you - lol. :) praying for a continued uneventful pregnancy...

Samantha said...

How wonderful!!!! Congratulations!

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brigette said...

Oh my goodness what a wonderful thing!! Ill be praying for you, those sweet babies and your family while they grow in your belly! Heres to a uneventful pregnancy with 2 sweet spirits in May!! Hugs mama

SG said...

That's wonderful news! Congrats :)

Desiree said...

Congratulations!!

Stacy said...

YAY!

Rose said...

Wow!! What an exciting new journey you are on. Congrats!!! :o) Praise God!

Chelle406 said...

So happy for you and your family!

Robin said...

This is so wonderful! Congratulations! I am so happy for you guys! I will be praying for you and these 2 precious babies. TWINS! What a double blessing! God keeps His promises!

Darcey said...

Such wonderful news...congratulations!!! I will be praying for you and your babies :)

Her and Her and Him said...

I've been reading your blog for a couple months now but this is my first comment. Congrats to you and your family! We'll be praying along with your for an easy and uneventful pregnancy!

I am a fellow Mom of twins. My twin girls were Mo/Di, and I have a son two years older then the girls. I don't think I relaxed or let myself believe I was having two babies until they were born. There were so many fears with their higher risk pregnancy. I can relate to the feeling of disconnect. I didn't wash a single matching outfit until two days before my scheduled c section at 39 weeks. I just kept waiting for the bad news (I don't really know why?!) Just wanted you to know you're not the only one who felt a little disconnected.

Congrats again and wishing you all the best!

Rebecca P. said...

Congratulations!! I hope you have an uneventful pregnancy and that you continue to feel better.

peskypixies said...

I havent commented before but I feel the need now.How fabulous you are having twins.My girls are almost 12 and are such joys.I also had another twin pg before I had my living set of twins but lost them at 12 weeks.

I know Ellie will be watching over you all.

wishing you a safe and uneventful pregnancy.

Brittanni said...

I've followed your blog for a long time, and have never commented on any of your posts, although I have shed tears over many of them. I wanted to say congratulations! So beyond happy for you. Seriously could not have happened to better people. I hope you have a wonderful, uneventful pregnancy and have two big, beautiful, healthy babies to love on!

Macuil said...

Yay! I'm so happy for you!

~M~ said...

I totally teared up when I read your news. Congrats!!

Natasha said...

You already know how happy I am for you guys! Can't wait to meet those sweet babies in May!!! Love you friend!!!!

xoxo

Rachel said...

So happy for you and that everything looks good so far. I'll be following along! Happy Thanksgiving :)

Deanna said...

This post makes me cry with joy for you! We have GOT to figure out some time to meet up and I can give you a hug in person! Lots and lots of love to you and your family. Sending prayers for those two sweet babies to keep growing! ((hugs))

Ashley said...

I've told you before but...I AM SO EXCITED AND HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!

Tara said...

Congratulations Tiffany! I am so happy for you!

Melissa said...

Just reading this now, but congratulations!! Saying prayers for you and your two sweet babes.

Erika said...

I stumbled upon your blog randomly and knew there was a reason why I couldn't stop reading! You are such an amazing woman. I have twin girls who are 4 1/2 now...if you ever want to chat twins lemme know:)

erika

Erin said...

So wonderful to hear this news! I guess I missed this post when it first went up. Congratulations! We'll look forward to news on your two-fer as you progress in your pregnancy. Hope it will be totally uneventful!!

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