Monday, May 23, 2011

Blank

That's my mind lately.

Out of sight, out of mind.

I forget easily. But I don't really care.

I'm tired.

I feel like I've regressed back into the numb stage. I miss Ellie but it's not a crying and out-of-control sobbing sort of miss. I almost wish it was that kind of sadness. It feels easier than this.

I feel calm on the outside- who knows if that's how I appear. But I don't feel calm inside. I feel jittery, restless, unfocused and scattered.

I suppose that my mind is preparing itself for tomorrow. The 24th. [insert sigh] Or maybe it's preparing to avoid tomorrow.

I don't know. I just don't know anymore.

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Remembering May 23rd, 2010



2 comments:

LauraJane said...

I feel like I've hit a block too- sometimes crying, sometimes nothing. The nothing scares me a little. :|

Such gorgeous little toes. ;) Thinking of you tomorrow!

Natasha said...

So sorry Tiffany- praying for you my friend. I hope you find some peace tomorrow.....

Love always
xoxo

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