Out of sight, out of mind.
I forget easily. But I don't really care.
I feel like I've regressed back into the numb stage. I miss Ellie but it's not a crying and out-of-control sobbing sort of miss. I almost wish it was that kind of sadness. It feels easier than this.
I feel calm on the outside- who knows if that's how I appear. But I don't feel calm inside. I feel jittery, restless, unfocused and scattered.
I suppose that my mind is preparing itself for tomorrow. The 24th. [insert sigh] Or maybe it's preparing to avoid tomorrow.
I don't know. I just don't know anymore.
Remembering May 23rd, 2010