After she passed away last fall, my mom told her instructor that Ellie wouldn't be back for the rest of the session because she'd passed away. For a couple of weeks after Ellie passed away, my mom, mother-in-law and both sister-in-laws helped with swimming so I didn't have to go and see Ellie's class file in after Max's. Eventually I sucked it up and went with, just to watch at first, while my mom got in the pool with Max.
One evening, a girl from the desk came over and asked if I was Ellie's mom, handed me an envelope, said, "I'm so, so sorry" and walked away. In the envelope was a check for Ellie's Memorial Fund, and a session of free swim lessons for Max. Ellie's teacher came over to me later and explained that they thought it would be good for Max to continue with swimming and if I didn't feel like I could get into the pool with him and there weren't any relatives available, that I could call ahead and they would have an instructor get in with him. It was a very kind thing for them to do.
A few weeks later I sent them one of the thank you cards we had made. The cards were beautiful, they had four pictures of Ellie on them and the company altered them so they were appropriate for us. Even though it was almost 7 months ago, they still have their pictures of Ellie out. It was such an amazing surprise to see her little face there today.
On our way to swim lessons, I was thinking, "I should have two kids in the backseat. My mom should be in the front with me so that she can watch one kid while I swim with the other, and then we would switch like we did last fall. There should be two." I felt the tears starting to well up so I turned up the radio to distract myself and at that exact moment, Ellie's song, "The Rhythm of Love" started on the radio. I had to smile. Even though it's not at all what I want, she was there... After spying her cute little face in the swim office on our way out, there is no doubt in my mind, that she is trying to tell me that she isn't as far away as she feels.
Thank you Belle... After these past weeks, I needed that. I love you!!
Remembering June 28th, 2010
A little playroom action...
Ellie always wanted to get her hands on Max and as soon as she would get her chance, she'd take it!
I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this picture of Ellie. I just love the expression on her face- it's so Elle.