It's been ten months since we walked out of the hospital, and away from our girl. It's been kinda brutal lately. Ellie has been on my mind a lot. Everything reminds me of her and reminds me of what our life should be like right now.
It's been ten months without her. We only have her for nine.
It's been ten months, and in two months, it will be one whole year. I know Ellie is never coming back. So I just want the one year milestone to hurry up and get here, so it can be behind us, like so many other horrible days this year....
I've shared this video here before, but that was a long, long time ago. I just finished watching it, and even though I thought it was going to make her sadder, it didn't. It was so amazing to hear her little voice and she her funny mannerisms. This is the video my good friend, Josh, made to show at Elle's funeral. A lot of the pictures I have posted on my blog, but the video clips are the best part in my opinion. They are glimpses into our old life- when life was still perfect, and they show just how beautiful and silly our girl really was. The last video, at the very end, where she is sitting on the floor talking, was taken on October 18th. Just one week before she died. It just goes to show that you never know whats going to happen and where life will take you.
Missing you for ten long months Peanut! I love you!