Tuesday, February 15, 2011

13 months

Ellie should be turning 13 months old today. Would I still be taking her monthly pictures? My guess is I wouldn't be able to get her to sit still long enough. I can't believe she would be 13 months old. She left us as a nine month old- a baby. Now, she would be a toddler. She would be turning into a little girl now. It's getting hard to imagine what she would be like. It was easy to picture her as a ten month old or eleven month old. But now, she would be so different. Walking, talking. She'd be wearing bigger clothes and eating table food. I wonder how many teeth she would have. I can't believe we were cheated out of knowing all these things.

On another note... Max's celiac labs came back negative (normal). So no celiac disease. Yay! But what does this mean? I have no freaking idea. It's a non-answer. We still have no known cause for his reflux... After a trip to the pediatrician today, we did learn he has bronchitis and an ear infection. A consolation prize?

After doing a little research, I've discovered that for children, especially those two and under, there can be a lot of false negative lab results (meaning the tests say they don't have it, but really they do). The only real way to get an answer is to do the small intestine biospy. So why did I hold Max down screaming the other day for labs that were known to be inconclusive before they were even completed?! So who knows- he still might have celiac disease. Is it time for a glass of wine? Yes, yes it is.

February 15th, 2010


TanaLee Davis said...

I totally understand what you mean. Its difficult to think about how old the babies we lost would be. How long their hair would be, personality type,interests,likes,dislikes would be. Who they would take after. *insert tears here* Yes pondering the unknowns of what is forever gone in this world can be very sad and draining. I'm sorry your feeling down. I have thoughts like these all the time. I hope that you can find something to smile about or you see something that Ellie might like and it warm your heart. Hugs-

Beth said...

have you thought about trying an elimination diet to see if it helps? do they recommend that? my kid is sensitive to dairy. we went through years of ear infections, snoring, a sleep study, etc. finally, we tried a dairy/gluten/soy elimination diet. the difference was amazing. now we know the culprit was dairy. every once in a while we think we can add it back in, but are quickly reminded that we can't when the snoring returns. anyhow, I know you have enough on your plate right now, but if you have the energy to try it, it might help??
Hugs to you, Mama.

Tiffany said...

((hugs)) it's so hard to pass those milestone days. missing Ellie with you...

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