Monday, April 25, 2011

Six Months Gone

Peanut~ Six months ago, we had to say goodbye forever. I miss you more every day. I knew I couldn't spend today sitting around doing nothing. So a couple of months ago, we decided to serve dinner at the Ronald McDonald House at the hospital where we lost you. It wasn't easy going back there today. I sat in the same break room across from a nurse who was there the night you left. I didn't remember until we left there tonight, that we sat in the main entrance waiting for the car to come around. Well, I didn't actually remember it, I just had a flash of sitting in the lobby.
But tonight, my sweet girl, your light shined brightly. There were so many people who were thankful for a hot, homemade meal. They were thankful for people to serve it to them and they were even thankful for someone taking their dishes to the sink. They were tired and exhausted. Having a sick child in the hospital is hard work. We were glad to be able to give them a little break. We got to tell some people about you and we wore our Ellie's Light shirts. Mine even said "Ellie's Mommy" on it.
After we served dinner, we took a tour of the House. It opened six days after you died. If it had been opened earlier, we probably would have been offered a room there- you were the sickest patient in the hospital and the House would have been a refuge for us. It's a beautiful place and I am so happy it is there for families who need it. I think we will be doing this again. I think your light could be used there too!
I am so proud of you Ellie. In just nine months, you showed us how to love and find joy in the little things around us. You are my reason. In just the six months you've been gone, you've inspired more than some people do in a whole lifetime. I am so thankful I get to be your Mommy. I love you forever and ever!

I wish I could say I made these!

For you, our Sweet Girl!

Remembering April 25th, 2010

It's hard to believe that this was our life just one year ago...

An attempt to get a picture of the two in their matching jammies

Max actually pretending to feed his monkey


Anonymous said...

What a beautiful way to pay tribute to Ellie's life on what must have been a very difficult day for you. You are really an inspiration.

LauraJane said...

Such an amazing thing to do.

I love those t-shirts, made me tear up. I love the photo of the matching PJs, so cute. :)

Sarita Boyette said...

What a wonderful thing to do in Ellie's honor! I love all her & your son's beautiful pictures. Remembering her with you...xoxo.

crystal said...

I am so glad that everything went great at the hospital. I know Ellie is so pround to call you mommy. Spreading her love and story is the best thing that you could ever do. Praying for you!!!

Beth said...

tears welled up looking at these lovely pictures, Tiffany. such a wonderful thing you did, and what a wonderful team/family. I'm sorry Ellie didn't get to grow up in your wonderful family, but she is looking down on your crew with pride. So inspirational! You guys are awesome <3.

TanaLee Davis said...

This so reminded me of when I lived at the RMH in seattle. The kitchen's weren't near as nice
Jeremy and I have talked about volunteering there someday...its great that you do it in Ellie's name...perhaps we will do something similar.

Natasha said...

Love this so much Tiffany!!!! You guys look great out there doing good in Ellie's name! And those t-shirts are awesome!!! I know little miss Ellie is smiling down on you from heaven! I know she is so proud of her mama!

Love you girl! Praying for you as always!


MommyToTwoBoys said...

Such a great idea, you are doing so much to honor Ellie's life.

I just read through a lot of your blog and needless to say I am bawling. And in such awe of how amazing you are. Your comment about if you had Ellie again you would scoop her up and never put her down is heart wrenching. I know another mom who lost her daughter and she wished she had never gotten upset with her, rather truly cherished every minute.

These things remind us all to live a better, more meaningful life, focusing on what is truly important. Thank you for sharing your story Tiffany.

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