My Little White Whale

Elle Belle,
We got our first big snow fall today. Several times today I imagined you sitting in front of the sliding glass door staring at the sudden change in scenery. You would have been so curious. I can just see you sitting there, pounding on the glass with that inquistive look on your face. You would have looked back at me to make sure that I was seeing the same thing you were. I would have taken you outside in your heavy coat and striped stocking cap so you could feel the snowflakes falling on your face. The fresh blanket of snow is beautiful, like you. Normally, I would be so excited about the first big snow. But today it feels like its suffocating me.
Tonight I just want to be able to go upstairs, take you out of your crib and cuddle with you in the rocking chair. You'd snuggle right in. I'd rub my face on the top of your fuzzy little head. I want to breathe in your sweet baby smell. I want to look down at you and smile at how cute you are in your warm snuggly footies with your blankie tucked up by your face. I want to feel your weight in your arms and sing you your little lullaby. Its not fair that I can't do that. I wish you were here sweet girl. We miss you soooo much...

"Baby beluga in the deep blue sea,
Swim so wild and you swim so free.
Heaven above and the sea below,
And a little white whale on the go.

Baby beluga, baby beluga,
Is the water warm? Is your mama home,
With you so happy?

Way down yonder where the dolphins play,
Where you dive and splash all day,
Waves roll in and the waves roll out.
See the water squirting out of your spout.

Baby beluga, oh, baby beluga,
Sing your little song, sing for all your friends.
We like to hear you.

When it's dark, you're home and fed.
Curled up snug in your waterbed.
Moon is shining and the stars are out.
Good night, little whale, good night.

Baby beluga, oh, baby beluga,
With tomorrow's sun, another day's begun.
You'll soon be waking.

Baby beluga in the deep blue sea,
Swim so wild and you swim so free.
Heaven above and the sea below,
And a little white whale on the go.
You're just a little white whale on the go"

I love you baby girl!



Cuddling with Dada before bed. Six days old.